Ambivalence

For weeks I have been experiencing this nagging feeling. The feeling of going back. The feeling of wanting to eat my own words just so that I can return to that comfort zone that I deliberately and willingly left to preserve my patience and life itself.

Though I became better nonetheless, I cannot deny the fact that of course, I do miss the past. The only thing that's keeping me is my word. My word of not going back. A promise that I intend to keep.

Now, even though I have determined the pros and cons before I left, I am now doing so again... This was not foreseen. I have evaded countless headaches by doing so but now, it seems I subconsciously want to get beaten socially black and blue by fickle-minded people.

To hell with this.